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Siti Su's spaceOctober 20 LIfe againWell i think life it a bit better...i hope.....
can i say proudly say is im goin back t study for CPT yeay the course is starting next year April WOHOOOOO Pls b excited for me but now to tell u the truth im becoming a super women during the day i teach and at night another part time job wow! i juz wan to save $$$ coz i wan to take DPT after my CPT atleast its better and at last im on my track wow!! alhamdulillah syukur.. thanku allah...
Now talking about my life Me n Him we r still together i wont rush i dun ntend to but we will c where fate put us in ok... but i juz wan to catch my dream, for now.. plus i may earn extra...
To my mum i hope to make u proud one day... i'll let u seat in my car one day wen i gain my own license ok.. dun worry u'll have ur wish insya'allah. btw i miss my family.. to those pple cherish every second u have wif them even its good or bad!!!
To HIM thank u for ur support from time to time but remember wat i really hate most u do it a gain im gone from ur sight forever i dun wan to go through hell again!!! im not even ur wife keep that in mind!!!
NOTE TO SELF:
i will move on even it take me to run into another country, i will not pple to take advantage of me... i have my own mind cant sacrifies everything.. N start beliving in ur own self!!!! u can do it ur on e right track women!!! and stay close to ur family...
i'll forever miss nenek..
forgive me nenek salmah
i miss u yayi
i miss my family
i love u bby
  August 08 sad bt im still leavingwell life is super extreme now one moment i can be soooooo happy bt the next i can b sooooo sad
1) kampung house at muar(arwah nenek house)
it was burnt down last week in2 august by some baboons who has no life in them well i can say they are jus the rubbish in the society. im so sad bvcoz the only memories of nenek and me is now gone the days i spent time with nenek n bah boyot is GONE!!! im sad bt everytin tat happens always have a reason bt the only house that has at kampung.. our ginah family kampung i noe my adik felt the lost coz both of us is always nenek wen bah boyot was alive... now everytin is into ashes. i jus wan to balek kampung..
2)BBY is in NS (civil defence)
im proud to say tat my bby is becoming a man.. wooooow!!!! until he proposed to me.. even though i give u the answer already bt im still thinking ok... kalau dah jodoh tk kemane bt we still have to work on it right! bby ns life has bben ok rite? e route march the ippt the foot drills and the food... and good job for losing nearly 7 kilos after 5weeks... bt i only lost 5kg... hahahahkzz... bby i love u n happy birthday on 9 August!!!!
3) JOB SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!
im leaving certis cisco by the end of the month hopefully the post i applied for succeed.. and i have a better life then.... plus can take care of our baby... my supervisor is a big shit and so does the District *&^$#@$& i dun understand y u guys do this... u dun listen or care about ur man and juz impose all those words to us u ask urslf have i ever humilitated u NEVER bcoz i belive we humans have feelings and emotion u stupid pple bt seriously ur... i had enough of it from cisco... U nvr care abt ur man bt u care only abt ur clients need..
4) my Life
so thats it.... after all the talking.... to my dearest friend im dissapointed in u tats y i avoided u... sorry bt we will meet some day i hope ur happy... one think should i ask friends dun keep quiet they care and share even they have thier love life they still care and asked... u should noe IM ALWAYS ALONE N WILL ALWAYS BE TAT WAY COZ NO ONE CARE! haiz its been a long time i blog hahahahahahah...... k tats all(wow im writing like incident report hahaha)
k bye bye.
bby i love u
i miss my family
i miss nenek.... i will always do
happy birthday syg
pls take care of me(note to self)
May 07 lifewell my relationship wif my mum is getting better bt still I nd my own space im slowly reaching my goal bt werkin at fusion has taught me abt life n human behaviour 1 important thing that I learnt was TRUST NO ONE!! they might b good to u bt they r a lot of backstabbers... well im learning everyday n im goin to b out frm this job once I get another job which is better payin... haiz... February 10 Cisco gerlfirst and for most i want to thank everyone that have been supporting me this while well my life have been ok.. still i miss my family esp my brothers and sisters.. i miss them.. if only i could hear thier voices i will be very happy.. mama i noe u r still mad at me n im too mad at u... but those things have made me strong i wan to live this way even though my chlid might not noe but i will make sure tat he/she noe tat their grandparents r still ard not tat im pregnant mayb i cant have children but i will make sure they respect thier elders.. my birthday was a sad one coz my close ones are away from me.. i miss u guys.... thx for all the well-wishes to me... i appreciate it alot.. khai was so sweet he went ard singapore to get the cake tat i really wan n bought me mr donald duck hahahaha... i celebrated at work at FUSIONOPOLIS... the people here are super power... hahaha they really make my day even we got fuck by mgmt or our supervisor hahaha... all gerek kaki!!! well my cso also gerek... hope eveything is goin 2 b fine ok.. cso.
ever since i work cisco im stable im supporting myself... n making myself buzy with work but the bad part is i got no time for myself or ever my relationship even though its strong but we have qurrels here n there... but i noe i love him tats all... well thank u to ur family for always there wen i need them... love u pple...
ok o my cuzzy sorry for nt being there for them but i try to make time ok.... insya'allah i meet u guys soon.. hahahahahaha..... give u all a birthday treat.. ok??? soon we shall meeet... cant wait to go karaoke hahaha.. can scream!!!!! ok lah tats all buzy working but still can blog hahahaha
im always missing my granny...
i love u pple January 01 i Wil lead my own life from now onNot every1 noe wats happening in my life now im hurt sad heartbroken this new year brings alot of tears in my eyes... end of 2008 i ran away from home or shall i phrase as someone doesnt wan me home( i noe it is my mistake to come home late everyday n im unemployed i noe its my mistake!!! but u dun have to put this sentence so painfully, mama im hurt bcoz u gave up on me u told me to get married off i was very hurt tAt u said tat. u thought the only thing that could solve the problem is by marrying me off mayb it could ease e burden on u.. but its not goin to solve it!! iwas dissapointed in u every since i was 5 yrs old when u started knowing HIM!!! u chge, every1 chge.. iwas hurt badly hurt by him yet u still stay wif him!!! watever he does u didnt protect us.. was it my fault to be born in this world is it because of me u became like this now??? is it? wat did i do to u tat i dun get ur love attention ur affection as a mother ever since youngg i was push everywhere.. first nenek salmah then nenek jumiah then who else? but wen u wan to get married u took us back?? for wat to hurt us?? Ya allah adekah salah hambamu ini? Still we were still beening push around among the family.. im confused wen im 14 i stayed with nenek nvr come back went school from there did u even care?? then wen i was 18 i chge alot becoming the bad person or infact ever since yg i was bad.. then wen u move to nenek place everthing chge again.. u ruined my life i start staying away from nenek hse.. i was sad coz nenek understood me but HE made me to leave e house.. i miss nenek n i regret not staying by her side... Now u blame me to ruin ur life n still ask wat did u do that i disrespect u.. i noe i sinned i noe i will nvr go to heaven coz i noe allah is angry at me.. but i will continue praying tat my mum will be safe.. as long she is happy wif her life now) Starting 1 Jan 2009 i will be leaving on my own pple dun worry i will contact u whenever i can but i not joining any family events im on my own.. please respect my decision i noe every1 will b mad at me but i cant bear to c all thier dissapointed faces... Nothing can be done now.. im sorry i noe i admit it is my mistake but nothing can be done.. i nearly gave up my life but im goin to stay for a while now n c wat will happen my life is in a big mess To Bby thank u for always there wen i need u i really appreciate wat u have done.. thank u to ur family.. soon i will meet nenek i want to meet her so badly coz i miss her sooooooooooooooooo much... sad |
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